He is in Japan tonight but he has not sent me text over 10 hours.
Even I’m with my friend or family, it’s always in my mind.
It’s because I have PMS right now my emotions are swinging.
The other night, he told me he trust me. What is trust? Do I trust him?
I constantly worry that he will meat other girl and will leave me.
I would not beg him to stay.
I hate myself that I always think about him.
When I’m with him, I am abusolutry happy.
It’s no doubt but when I’m not with him which is most of the time, I am not so happy and constantly questioning myself why am I seeing him.
When I start dating, I knew his status. Trust me that I feel guilty all the time.
It sometimes overwhelming me.
I know it’s my weakness that I can not leave him.
He said he loves me but I know he doesn’t and it hurts.
It hurts when he says the word.
I know my heart is broken and have a lot of scars.
Is this a pain on the way to be happy? What is happiness?
Life has consequences and the choice made your life but when you have only one, there is no choice.